Tuesday, August 17

Pages from My Grandmother’s Diary

In a world that spins relentlessly, Sangay learned early that a life free of trials and tribulations often lacks the richness of true joy. His life story unfolds like a vivid tapestry woven with struggles and triumphs, revealing that the essence of happiness is often forged through overcoming adversity.

In a dimly lit room, Officer Mindu struggled to stay awake. His finger pressed down on the switch that illuminated his small, gloomy sanctuary. The weak light barely dispelled the shadows of his harsh reality. Nearby, his ailing grandmother stirred awake from the sound of his anguished coughs, as thick blood seeped from his lungs. It was 1:00 am. Mindu’s mind, plagued by nightmares more tormenting than reality, was numbed by the alcohol he had consumed in a futile attempt to escape his fate. The pain in his back was a constant reminder of his deteriorating health, more oppressive than the haze of tobacco smoke that clouded his breath.

Mindu, in his youth, had been a beacon of brilliance, a star shining brightly in the constellation of his generation. Fluent in Hindi, a poet, a songwriter, and a skilled player of the Dramgyen, he was a school prodigy who had dazzled both peers and professors alike. His academic excellence led him to India, where his achievements continued to shine. He spoke French with surprising ease and was a master archer and bull’s-eye shooter.

His life seemed perfectly scripted. A brilliant student who never faltered, Mindu was a model of excellence. His essays earned admiration and his presence commanded respect. He inspired those around him with his courage and dedication, becoming a role model for many. His father, a hardworking farmer, was his greatest inspiration—steadfast and self-reliant, guiding Mindu through the challenges of life.

However, as the years rolled on, the gleam of his success began to dull. Settling into a successful career and a happy marriage, Mindu was blessed with a family, but his children grew distant. They sought refuge in fleeting pleasures rather than the values he had once cherished. The absence of hard work in their lives made it difficult for them to appreciate the depth of true happiness. Mindu found himself struggling to connect with his children, who were more inclined toward indulgence than introspection.

His wife’s involvement in gambling and neglectful parenting added to his distress. Mindu's life, once filled with ambition and purpose, now seemed overshadowed by the failures of his children and the strain of his own health. Despite the modern comforts surrounding him, he felt a profound emptiness.

As his children embarked on their own paths, Mindu’s role in their lives diminished. His mother’s death, exacerbated by stress, was a heavy blow, and Mindu’s sense of loss deepened. He turned to alcohol and smoking, attempting to numb his despair, but his health continued to decline. Doctors warned him of failing organs, but he was too engulfed in his sorrow to heed their advice.

In his final days, Mindu reflected on his life, feeling the weight of his mistakes. His once cherished faith and prayer had faded, leaving him to grapple with regret. Yet, amidst his suffering, a glimmer of clarity emerged. His dearest friend, a wise lama, advised him to find peace by giving away his worldly possessions. Mindu embraced this counsel, donating the proceeds from the sale of his car and land to noble causes: saving animals and building spiritual monuments.

As he neared the end, Mindu’s thoughts drifted back to his school days—the days of acclaim and achievements. He found solace in the memories of his past successes and the pure joy they brought. His grandmother, in her final act of love, offered him a last sip of water.

In the twilight of his life, Mindu found a measure of peace. With the "Tibetan Book of Living and Dying" in his hands, he faced his final moments with a calm heart. His journey, marked by highs and lows, left him with a profound understanding: that true contentment comes from embracing life’s trials and finding redemption through acts of kindness and generosity.

Monday, August 2

A dreamer who lost amidst the woods..


The perennial stream that run through the woods begin its course far flung the climax of Phajoding,a heavenly abode of gods and goddesses.

I narrate it as traditional masterpiece, hidden on the mountains where colorful prayer flags flutter and bravely stood against the mighty sky.

Stupas lay there so quiet yet so ancient,
The hills and mountains  awake me of   fairy tales,the happy endings.
I went up picking summer mushrooms.


It's Thimphu,a beautiful setting.
You fly through the woods,powered by wings of imagination
waving beyond the dancing clouds,
the Bluepines and grassy earth ,
I crept like a creature walking barefoot,
connected to the motherly earth.


The smoke incense from mountainside,
Three birds glided softly and vanished across,
I wish i could stay there forever.

A tree house,swinging from branch ,
the hush and tranquil breeze,
the cattle that graze on the meadows,

This Utopian bliss did cast an enchanting spell,
I picked up some more mushrooms,
Sooner my bag did fill up,

The city blooms in a majestic fashion,
an icon of heavenly country side,

From the hill that lounge the valley,
The awaken Buddha takes a glimpse,
The sparkle of his compassionate face,
relieves the rays of wisdom and profoundness,

I walk down through the woods,
skidding on bumpy slopes,
the echo of the mountain spring,
lasted in my thoughts,

I took the last gaze of the city,
A beauty beyond the words,
It lies there so green and so beautiful,